10 Introspection

Only just beginning and I’m sick and tired of celebrating my victory
Its not yet time but I’m worn down from all the procrastinating
If I can’t tell you then I doubt I’ll ever tell it to anybody
Don’t understand the way this conscience of mine copes
Will you make an effort to comprehend this break our silence
I recognise that we live in different worlds with different rules
But I’ve come to find that we share some common language
In this moment I’m feeling hypocritical for the way that I have spoken
Trod you down so often failed to listen and ask how you were feeling
Perhaps even now I’m still missing the point of it all
As I stand here preaching while my mind is enjoying sinning
Never meant to do any of this it just happens life happens
Do we make it there in the end can you see further than me
Is there a secret that you’ve encoded in the broadcast of your mind
My heart made new I live to glorify the God for whom I live
But in the darkness I find that its just too much for me to take
This is no case of having found what I was desperately looking for
I never knew that there was anyone who could be so accepting of me

20.03.01